Accident Last Two Weeks

In one moment you could lose your life , she was never thinking that could happeded to her , she was thinking about her Lover there , and she was thinking about his hurt words when he said and how could he did that , she lost her mind and heart , she could live her life without Love but she wil live Emty life without him how ever she couldnt sleep last wednseday was thinking of his words the most hurt word she had ever hear it before I AM NOT YOURS. that words hurt her so much. how it hard when you broked your heart. she went to her Uni , she sat in her chair like ant normal day she was looking to there No Place was there she was thinking of few words that was Only Thing hurt her. her freinds around her she couldnt her them , they were loughing and she was smiling like she wont to ant one saw her pain, the time passed too slow. her best friend visted her at Uni , she try to asked her whats wrong but she wouldnt like to tell any one . In the Moment they were walking in the street when they were waitting for green Man in the Traffic lights she crossed street without her Mind it was there two cars drived very fast in Highway One of the cars was crossing the highway It was like cricle she was in the middeld of them one of the driver trid to stoped and ther ather driver couldnt stopped the car crush her fome lift side , she Felled down and stand in the same Time . she was standing like nothing happend to her her friends was shouting and screming she couldnt her them , she was listen to One Words I am Not YOURS but she was saying I Am YouRs even your not ,she felled down Agein. people came around her , SoSO start to Cry ,she thought she was dying but she didnt . police came in One Min like they were behind the door. the Emergency came took her all thought she dying but she was dying inside her feeling. after an hour in hospital she wake up like nothing happend to her. when she saw her friend , she cryed and said I dont wont to die befor to saw him and touch him for last time If I die would he lose one tear for me , her freind cried as well cuz she thought of she wil lose her for ever. after that the doctor came and talked to her and said nothing happend to axspet ur shoulder we wil fix it and u wil get better soon , she was saying in her mind I wil get better soon what about the pain in my heart when I wil get better soon . the doctor took her to do x ray to her shoulder. soso father with satying with her in hospiatl cuz of her father wasnt in England this time. they wouldnt like to tel her mum they only called her brother he came with hid friend , he was worried about her she saw tears in his eyes , doctor came and said she wil be fine The psychological state of her is bad. soso father called her father and told him , in this time she was thinking of die. she satyed at hospital about 15 hours then let her out but the doctor said she has to back every day to chak out of her shoulder , she was asking about her phone where is it her freind said your freind broked but hte sim card stil work. back to her home all the way was thinking af die. she said strenger word I would KIll one person befor I die . when her mum saw her , she was superised and cryed , she said to her mum I am allright nothing happended to me . she went to her room look at pictures like she want to say goodbye to them, she got too much hurt , she was thinking of him. her mum said do not tell any one about it , but there is a few people already knew it, how ever she wouldnt like to talke with any one but she stil in love with him but she will keep that in her broken heart , she wil nevr showing that at all ,, he Loves her or he was loving her but we dont know what matter ? the ponit of this story that LOVE could be lose for few words we dont know why and how but we know we got hurt from that . Can we hate who we loved can we kill them by love , Love is like sea we will drowing in it and see different world in diffrent eyes witout life u will feel emty. this story hurt too much thatz why i wrote it . I feel like it is part of me but in different way

Without ThinkIng ..

I ve exams this Mounth and I did some of them However I did wel but only one exam I didnt do well like what I want I was just cilck on the cricle without thinking I was thinking about there ,,,when I finiesh the exam sheet my toutor asked me how was the exam Without thinking I said I done well but I was lia , I dont know why I Said that to my self but my toutor he was talking about and I dont know what he was talking about I was just listening without thinking about what he was saying then he said are you ok I said yes I am he said your eyes has tears in it I said I Am just Tired , he said yes I can see that when I was standing Tom came and asked what I have done in the exma I Said yes I done well , then he asked me to go with him to Coffe to drink some thing I went with him all the way he was talking but I wasnt listen to him I was just listen to my self ,after that he stoped me and asked if I am ok I told him yes I am ok he said why you didnt smile at all 2day in this moment when he said that he made me thinking about that there is people care about our smile, even If there are different traditions and religious that mean there is Relationship between All people as we are humans. However when we arrived at coffe we saw sara was waiting for us she asked same thing about exam and how was it. we had drink toghter and they were talking about how we will spend the weekend the asked if I would like to go with them I said No cuz I ve alots things to do and I ve to study for anther exams. when were siting it was the time to go to anther lesson , Tom was stil want to know why I am quite. I told him that I am ok just I need some of rest. we had experiment to do all the experiment he was try to made me smile, when we were Measuring the Sample he spoke to me so Quietly and said Life Goes on do not wast your life Of thinking on nothing thoes words went into my heart and mind on the same time. when We finiesh the lesson we went out in the garden and we had lunch there the boys were playing football the weather was nice to play I was sitting watching them in this moment Arabic guy came to me he called Ahmed asked me if he can sat with me I said yes , Tom came fast when he saw him talked to me. we talked toghter and then he left us Tom said to me I think that guy likes you I smiled and I said I dont care. we walked and Tom all the way was talking about his girlfrend and how he missd her. that pain me so much cuz I Missing people there . he asked me strenger questions and made me lought when he asked he said is Love allowed for muslims girl !!! I said yes 1000 % allowed for them but in diffrenet way. It was time to go home I said bye to them Sara Asked me If I wil come On Monday I said YEs I will come, I went to home all the way in the Bus I was thinking ,,, how Hurt that when you find about some thinking and I couldnt find I can hear My voice all the nosy around me I couldnt hear it . I arrived at home talked to mum how I spent my day I hadnt my lunch cuz already Full .I sat and watch Tv after that I went to my room satying there and drink coffe I didnt sleep that night like I was waiting for something but that was dreaming, that was one of my days

MY day Has finiesh

I caN say my day was remmeding day cuz i was just siting and reading my litters sometimes I lought cuz was there alots of crazy things in them , I felt I miss them too much , I miss my school , I miss my freinds in libya , I was happy cuz when I left them I left to them with good things can remind me of them ,, however the world has change around me but even my heart doesnt change , I know now they have thier live and all of them start new things and new stories and funny things even me I ve new life when i came to England but I alaways remmeber them ,,I miss my freinds, I caled of my friends before she said to me we always remmeber u and how z funny things u were doing ,, I was happy when I heard that ,,After I finiesh My litters ,,My brother and sis came from libyan school and we had lunch my mum made to us BAZEN it was nice but I eat the soup of it ,, after that I went to my room and all my thinking was in the past i was just thinking of my freinds , I start to study but I didnt feel well cuz all my think was there in libya I wasnt just think of my friends but I was thinking of someone is there ,, After that I went down my mum said to me bring with u our pics from libya i Brought and we looked one of my Fevrouite pics was with my uncle ,, and another one was with my cusin Caled Asma , she was like my sis but she get marrid and have son ,, there are alots of pics when we was in my grandfather farm I love thoes pics or act I love the farm , I love it soo much it is my Home it is part of me , I had nice time there , that farm has Special smell special Life that farm has warm-heartedness I wil decribe that farm in anther time , I know that I left behind me Good things and Human life is only Note, see ya in anther blogs

Sunny DAy

today was sunny day , it was really nice weather without raining , I was MIssing the sunshine long tim I havent seen The sun , I wake up about 12, my sis wake me up she was soo anyoung ,but when she opend the window the light of the sun came into my room thatz made me eneger to start new day , I went downstaits the breakfast was areadly made we had breakfast with dad , mum , and Oma my brother and litter sister was at libyan school, after that I had to clean my room , my sis and mum at that time went to city cinter , and I stayed at home i went out to the garden i Brought with me my littler box, it had alot of Letters from my friends in libya I was siting in the garden and i started to read them , when i read them I felt happy and sad at the same time i was listening to our songs that we had togther and that made pain to me I dont know why when we remmeber som thing we had before made us pain and hurt , anyway my day hasnt finiesh yet but I write at the night now my anoyoung sis came and she soooo anyounging now, be back

that my first blog( I dont Know )

last summer alots of things happend to me one of them it was Dream but I dont know if it was beautiful or bad cuz wen it gone it hUrt soo much ,,but I can say it was beautiful but it Hurt me , every time when I remmeber what happend I cry to much , I wont to start new life with beatiful dream but all what i dreamd it was nothing , itz gone like Leaved autumn but the strenger think that feeling stil live in me wtih cold , wind pain, cry in the middle of the night and No one can see me cry cuz my heart it is bleeding b4 it z cry ,, I dont Know any thing I just know what I had it was dream but stil living in me ..